When I returned to Utah, I was, as I said previously, I was not in the best place spiritually, physically or socially and had to re-write some habits. I had not been attending church regularly for a time, because I felt so lost and alone. However, upon returning and after spending time at home with people who helped encourage me, I was once again inspired to seek the lord and I decided I needed to work on creating better habits as far as spiritual things are concerned.
It took some time, but, as I began to heal spiritually, my physical health improved dramatically as well.
About this time, I moved to a new apartment, that was a much better environment for me. I broke up with my boyfriend, and while that was difficult at the time, I was blessed with amazing friends who were able to buoy me up and help me move into a happier place.
Heidi in Hawaii
My parents were celebrating their 25th wedding anniversary and awkwardly (for them) invited me along to Hawaii. I had just ended it with my boyfriend of a few years and was feeling, once again, broken. It was a very healing experience for me. I was able to spend a week in Hawaii surrounded by people who loved me no matter my shape, health, amount of hair or other boundaries and restrictions we put on ourselves and others.
The next year passed relatively un-eventfully, however, during the summer of 2009 (I believe) I was called to be the relief society president. I felt extremely inadequate due to my past sorrows and transgressions. Despite those feelings, the phrase God qualifies whom he calls has never felt truer than it did during that summer.
Also, when someone says the calling allows you to feel an intense love for those with and over whom you serve, that is extremely true. I can testify of the love that the Lord has for each of the sisters in that summer relief society and each of us in general. You are se dearly and truly loved by our Savior. If anyone of you happen to read this blog, I hope you know that and that I was able to show you that, despite how the summer ended.
Wander Girl 
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