Live in Faith

I am a planner. I like to know what comes next, in life, in work in pretty much all things. However, today, I took a giant leap of faith and stepped right over a cliff into an ocean of the unknown. I just gave the owner of my current living space 30 days notice with absolutely no plan for where I will go, with about the same time frame left in my current contract at work. Essentially, I’m tired of fighting and have decided to give my life over to the Lord and let him guide me to my next destination. It is maybe one of the scariest moments I’ve had in my life, even more so than open heart surgery or Lupus diagnosis. In those moments, there were next steps…. in this moment, I have no next steps. In this moment, I’m allowing the Lord to guide me completely. Saying this “out loud” makes me feel it should be the easiest and least scary decision, but sometimes giving our entire world to Him involves allowing everything you knew to fall apart so that better things can fall together.

It’s moments like this that build faith, and so I had to share and help build my faith and hopefully the faith of others.

I am going to keep this entry short, mostly because the story is still being written.

I am moving forward because standing still was literally getting me nowhere….both literally and metaphorically.

Interestingly, just a month ago, I don’t believe I would have had the faith to make this move. I started about a month ago reading the Book of Mormon and marking all the names given the Savior. It has led me to a deeper knowledge of his power to lead our lives in paths that we wouldn’t have chosen for ourselves but that have the power to make us not just happy but eternally joyful. Take your first step on the water trusting Him completely, and see what miracles enter your life. Ask for and expect miracles.