Take Control

I didn’t know whether to put this in my lyrics folder or on the regular blog. Its something that I started thinking about a few weeks ago and has just been ruminating in my mind for a few days and, usually when something ruminates it eventually comes out in song lyrics or poetry of some sort, but this is how this one ended up.

I have a beat in my head. A beat can’t really technically be written on a blog, so maybe you’ll be able to feel it through the words.

This last week I met with multiple employment counselors to see if there are things I can do that I haven’t been doing. I am starting to feel a little more in control of my situation. I have been very candid about my therapy and how working with a therapist has helped me also feel like I am finally getting back some hope and control.

There are still conversations that need to happen with various people, but for now, feeling some of my own independence return through these private and individual experiences has been liberating.

"If darkness surrounds me, confounds me. When I'm lost and afraid and don't feel God needs me or sees me. 
When the time comes to pass that the things life gives you are breaking your back, take control.  You can carry your load.
Let it break you.
Let it make you. 
You're  a person who changes destiny with action.
 
Take control.
Break the cycle
Tell yourself you'll be and be it.
Tell yourself you'll do and do it. 
Tell yourself you can change your reaction.

Find the things you can fix and fix em. 
Create a new line and pretend you'll be fine, it'll happen. 
Grieve if you need to. 
Leave if you need to. 
Be angry and hurt it can't consume you.

Write your story. Let it save you. Let it change you. Only you have the power to reframe you.
Take control.